Ramblings, opinions, and general meanderings from the Deep South

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Longest Day of My Life

The world has changed, forever and ever. There is a huge hole in my heart that will never heal. My oldest daughter Kristi has gone to her well deserved reward in Heaven. This child of mine shall not be forgotten. She was so full of life and joy. I cannot begin to describe the overwhelming responses to this loss.

She touched so many hearts and it is awesome to see and hear all the wonderful, positive input from folks. As we said our farewells it was (and still is) very tough to keep from losing it. I stood at the foot of the bed holding Emily, my youngest daughter. Her heart is huge and just before we left the room for the last time she said, "Goodbye big sister, I love you." God help us all.

At first I was mad at God. Why didn't he take me? It was hard to accept such a loss. She was a superb Mother;  two daughters 3 and 5 years old that adored her. Kristi has been blessed with a loving, dedicated, understanding husband. This is a great family devoted to a lifestyle of goodness and joy. Why has God taken one of my girls?

My undue anger has subsided. Kristi lived a tremendous happy life and was such a sweet caring soul. God blessed her. She lived and loved far more than most. Everyone has positive things to say about this wonderful, wonderful daughter. Still, the loss is overwhelming.

I am extremely selfish. She was such a beacon of light and hope in this often stormy life. I gave her my word several weeks ago that Cybersouth would become an active blog again.  More will follow.  Forgive me. This is so very hard.

As information becomes available about the funeral and visitation it will be posted here.

1 comment:

Dock said...

Info should be available early tomorrow